Bringing in the New Year the right way !!!

So this Christmas was by far the worst I have ever had. Not present or family wise I enjoyed that but I awoke on Christmas morning at 4 a.m. with a dull nausea feeling. I thought to myself ehh I probably just need to eat so I did and it didn't go away. I came home from my hubbys family about 11 and laid down. Woke up around 4 in the afternoon and threw up all over the place. I reached for my trashcan by my bed for cases such as this but it literally happened so fast I couldnt get it in time it went all over my brand new 80 dollar pregnancy pillow my mom got me that morning and my nightstand and floor and a little went in the trash can. Well, I thought to myself maybe its over with now it was probably something I ate. WRONG !!!!!! 30 minutes later I had taken 2 drinks of water... threw that up. Drank some more water...threw that up. Then I started having a very bad bad bad tightening pain in my lower abdomen and told my mom I have to go to the hospital... I knew something was wrong. My hands and feet went numb and I was broke out in a cold sweat. My husband was at work so my mom offered to take me. They rushed me into the room at the ER and said I was SEVERELY dehydrated and it could be pushing me into preterm labor. I panicked !!!!!! They checked my cervix and it was still closed and long Thank God... but they said I was definitely having contractions. They admitted me and I was in the hospital for 5 freaking days. Couldn't keep much down and to add onto it my round ligament pain is now so severe they put me on percoset (however you spell that)
BUT... I have great news out of all this. I had my 20 week checkup and ultrasound yesterday and the cyst that was on my Kacis brain is gone she has caught up to her heart size ... the only thing is the ecogenic focus on her heart but my doctor assured me she is 99 percent positive its nothing. I have an echo ultraound on Jan 15th just to make sure but I am not worried cause I know now that God has my baby in his arms... its obvious because she overcame so much just because of all the wonderful people praying for her. She is most definitely a girl and she will not have down syndrome or any chromosomal disorder... she is going to be my perfect little miracle.
Still, as I write this I cant believe it. God is so good to me. That was the best new years present ever !! Now I can get to shopping for my angel !!!!!!!
Thank you to those that prayed... I am forever grateful for you.
<3 Brittany and Kaci

Can't shake this feeling...

I am trying to keep my head up lately. When a doctor tells you that your baby could have down syndrome or a number of chromosome disorders that could cause your child not to live past the first week, possibly not even the first few hours...It gets to you. Everyone tells me "put your faith in God" I have done this as much as I possibly can but there is still that little voice in the back of my mind making me worry.
My mom turned to me tonight with tears in her eyes to tell me how unselfish I am. She said it amazes her how truly unselfish I am and how I have grown into the wonderful woman she always wanted me to be.
I thought at that very moment...But, I havent always been this person. I have no always lived my life for my Lord. I couldn't help but wonder is this my punishment for the bad things I have done in the past?
It hurt my heart and I begged God at that exact moment to not punish my poor child for my mistakes. Please God, let her be born with no problems and live a long happy and successful life. If anyone deserves the punishment it's me.
My mom told me God doesn't punish. But, he can preform miracles. And I am asking this today. My baby...my darling little Kaci...she needs a miracle. We need a miracle. I am fighting back the tears as I write this...they come so often lately it's hard to believe that Christmas is 2 days away. I am usually so happy this time of year and I should be especially happy this year because I have a wonderful being growing inside me, who I would lay my life down for even though she isn't even here yet. But, instead I am sitting here worrying whether she will even be here next Christmas like I had been planning.
Please, everyone...pray for a miracle. Not for me... for my Kaci. She deserves a chance at a wonderful life and all I want is to see her grow into the amazing person I know she will be. I just love her so much already.
Thank you all for listening to me...those of you that did.

Brittany<3

Got some bad news...

My darling little baby Kaci,
Sometimes I can't find words to explain what being a mother means to me. What it has always meant to me. I had the worlds greatest mom growing up all I wanted to do was make sure that my children felt and knew the same love that I felt. When I found out I was pregnant...I'll admit it I was petrified. The thought of bringing someone into this world who totally depends on me made me worry. Would I be able to tell you all the things that would lead you in the right direction? Would you always know that you have someone who will ALWAYS be there no matter what? I kept wondering to myself how do I instill these things in you ? When I saw that little heart beating away on the ultrasound screen tears fell from my eyes. Even though you looked like a little sea monkey then...it blew me away. This little being growing inside me... I felt as if I was complete. Hearing and seeing your heart beating...was music to my ears. Then at the 12 week ultrasound you were actually moving on the screen. I couldnt believe it. You took the form of an actual human. You had arms and legs. And then there was the 16 week ultrasound. Finding out you were a girl. That changed my whole world. You waved at me with those tiny hands. All ten fingers and ten toes... You were perfect. Your still perfect in my eyes baby. When I got that call from the doctor today I lost it. That same heart that I saw beating away at 7 weeks was enlarged and could possibly have some complications with it. It broke my heart to hear those words. It was like I was hearing things. I couldn't breath. I just kept saying this can't be happening... its just a dream its just a dream. But, it wasn't. Why? Did I do something to deserve it? I know there is still a big chance everything is okay but I just keep thinking about the what if's. And there are so many. I wish I could just come in there and tell you everything I wanted to tell you when you got older just in case. I wish I could just tell you how wanted you are... Mommy and daddy want you so bad... I prayed for you. I begged God for you...Your all I have ever wanted.Why?? Why did we even have to have any complications or possible complications?? Its not fair !! I have never felt so helpless in my life. All we can do is sit and wait. And pray. Please know you are my everything. You will continue to be my everything. I am already so in love with you...and mommy and daddy... all we wanna do is meet you and keep you forever. Keep being my stong baby. Know that you have so many people out here that love you and are parying for you.... Keep kicking me, kick me as hard as you can I don't mind. It just keeps reassuring me of your amazing strength and that God is in there with you holding you close and he will make sure you stay wonderful. Please stay strong with me baby.. I will try so hard to stay strong on the outside just for you baby. I'm so scared to lose you. Stay with me forever.
I love you my sweet angel...
Always and forever...
<3 Mommy

Finally a White Light !!!

I am feeling better !! Still not quite 100% but at least 80% now !! My hubby and I went shopping yesterday for Christmas gifts for the family. It was nice. It was really great to finally get to spend some time with him outside of us just laying around the house. Thats pretty much all we have been able to do this entire pregnancy cause of me being so sick but hopefully everyone keep their fingers crossed that all that is over with and I can finally start feeling better !!
We passed the build a bear workshop and I had the bright idea to make Kaci her first stuffed animal. I know she is still a few months away from being born but I think its really special and neat that we got to make her first stuffed animal ourselves and she can keep that her whole life. We made her an Elephant. I got to put the stuffing in it and Brandon got to put the heart in it. We named it Hugzy !! Ill put a picture up do you can see it. I fell in love I can just see my beautiful baby cuddling with this elephant.
Speaking of Kaci she is still VERY active. I am getting kicked very low not really up high and you can only feel them from the outside if you catch it... its really hard to catch cause she is stubborn and will do it for me really hard then I tell Brandon to come over and feel and she stops !! Already making a liar outta me I can see when she gets older and she starts talking and walking she wont do it for anyone else !!
My little baby. I can't wait to meet her. I guess that is it for today. Hope you ladies(and gents) are doing well and I will update when something interesting happens i suppose lol.
Brittany<3

In between coughing...

Thought I would give an update. So I thought I would try to wait this cold out myself and try to just tough it out... well that didn't work. I had to break down and go to the doctor today. Well she told me I definitely have bronchitis which sucks. I can't stop coughing and it hurts sooooo bad not only in my chest but in my abdomen where the baby is ...Doc said that was normal though cause I am coughing so hard. I am just miserable though. I can't really do much of anything except sit here and cough and try to ingest food that I cant taste lol.
Baby Kaci is doing well. She is moving around alot lately. My little angel is making my mommys tummy explode. My jeans arents fitting anymore I have to use a hair-tye to buckle them now haha. I guess its time to break down and buy some maternity pants but I just dont feel like leaving the house. It took all my energy to get up and go to the doctor today. Maybe once I am feeling better my hubby will take me on a nice maternity clothes shopping spree hehe.
Well ladies I have nothing else really going on so Ill leave ya with a new belly picture I have really gotten bigger since the last one its pretty funny.
Hope you guys are well.

Brittany<3

And its finally here...

For the past 2 weeks there have been 2 different sicknesses going around my house. Mom and I both got the stomach flu which was TERRIBLE and my husband brought home strep throat. Well my mom and Brandon both got the strep throat but for weeks now I have had no symptoms of it. And last night just sitting in my bed I swallowed and realized my throat was a little achy. Well in a span of a few hours my voice was gone !!!!! Not to much of a fever so thats the good news I just am so yuck right now I want it gone !!! I cant taste any food and I was just getting my appetite back.
Kaci Jade has been very active still especially last night when I first started feeling bad. I swear its like she knows. She is my little angel.
Well this was a quick update so if I am not here for the next few days you know why. Hopefully I will still feel well enough to get on my computer or I will go nuts lol.
I hope everyone of ya'll are blessed :).

Lazy and I don't care...

These past 2 days I have done nothing but lounge. And thats not a lie either I literally got out of bed to pee and brush my teeth and my husband did everything else for me. I feel bad but yesterday I had a very good reason. My pregnancy headache set in and it stayed alllllll day long. And tylenol does absolutely nothing for me so I have to tough it out. Which is fine as long as I don't do to much cause if I get up and try to move around my brain feels like its throbbing on the inside of my head it SUCKS !
I am still not gaining weight but I am also not losing weight either so I guess I am still stuck at this place. I have been eating like crazy though. No nausea the past few days which I am VERY thankful for. I feel like its finally over for good. Now I just hope it doesnt come back in the 3rd trimester cause I have heard that that is not uncommon.
On top of all this my little darling in my belly has been moving around so much. Its such a wonderful feeling I really think she knows how much I enjoy feeling her little bumps cause she seems to do it ALOT !!
Last night hubby and I got into a HUGE argument I was crying and upset and when I get like that I get to where I cant catch my breath and I automatically have a panic attack... well she gave me a few little bumps and that seemed to take any kind of worry or pain I had away. She is mommys little girl already and I am so in love with her already. Husband did apologize once he saw my side and realized I was right (like always lol) so everything is okay now. Marriage is so stressful. I guess every marriage has its ups and downs though I wasn't expecting so many downs this early on but I guess we have extra stress on us since we found out we are pregnant a month after the wedding. Maybe once our little angel gets here things will get better. At least I hope so for the sake of our marriage.
Well, I am hungry so I guess I will go grab my leftovers and snuggle up on the couch with my weenie dog and watch Hancock. I hope you guys are well :).
Brittany<3

Black Friday. 16 weeks pregnant !!!

Was good. I stayed at home because I, for one, HATE black Friday. So therefore I sat at home and watched the marathon of forensic files on court tv. It was WAY better then waiting in line at 5 in the morning only to be trampled on and fighting over stupid deals that actually arent deals anyways. I am praying for the family of that man who was killed in New York today by customers running into Wal-mart. Its just sad.
On another note Thanksgiving was good. All the smells came at me at once and things almost got ugly in the nausea department but I kept it under control pretty well I might add. I didn't eat as much as I wanted but I did my fair share lol. I was hoping to gain some weight since yesterday and of course I LOST A FREAKING POUND !! I hate this I feel like I am a bad mother lol. I just wanna put on weight cause I don't wanna jeoprodize my bunnys life. I know she will take what she has to from me but still its hard when every other pregnant woman has gained like 10 pounds by now an I have lost the much.
I have felt alright today ... eating 2 pieces of fudge pie has made my little Kaci Jade very very active and hyper she has been doing her aerobics in mommys belly all day. Which I am not complaining I love feeling her move its only one of the most amazing feelings in the world.
I guess I don't have much else to say. Just wanted to update.

Brittany<3>

Happy Thanksgiving !!

So sorry I didn't get to update yesterday. I wore myself out after the ultrasound I was so excited I came home and passed out. Apparently, monday night when I was in so much pain and then it just automatically stopped the cyst ruptured on its own and is gone and she said both my ovaries look fantastic now. Thank God !!

I got so many wonderful shots of my little hunny bunny and is everyone ready for this... Its a....

GIRL!!!!!

I was so happy and shocked cause EVERYONE including myself was wrong-o.

Here are some pics to go along with it. Sorry for the short update but I gotta get back to sleep before family is here.

Brittany<3

Amazing Changes

Lets keep our fingers crossed shall we? The nausea has been gone for 5 days now... Please pray for me that it is gone for good. I had to go to the doctor yesterday, my left ovary seems to be burning alot lately and its scaring the poo outta me since they told me about the cyst on my left ovary 3 weeks ago. So my doc ordered an ultrasound the quickest they could get me in was tomorrow at 1 in the afternoon so I shall get to see my little Opie and find out if everything is okay. Maybe I can charm the ultrasound tech into showing me whats between the legs lol. I am so impatient even though I am so sure its a boy.
My little one has been very active lately. He loves to kick my bladder it seems only when its full and he knows that I dont feel like getting up. He is a mischevious little fellow already. I just cant wait to meet the little guy. It is still so surreal to me that he is even in there. I keep thinking I am not really growing a person inside me am I?
According to the doctors I am lol. I got to hear his heart beating away at 150 bpm yesterday. Its like music to my ears I think I could listen to that all day and never get tired of it. I really wanna get a doppler but I just dont wanna waste the money ... well it wouldnt be a waste to me but my hubby would say it was a definate waste of money.
I am starving...I am thinking Zaxbys for lunch today... yup that sounds good. I will update some more tomorrow after my ultrasound possibly some AWESOME news is on the way.
Brittany<3

Yes I am sorry...

I forgot to update the other day but its been a VERY rough past few days. First off Sunday I woke up and decided I wanted to have breakfast with my friend Stacie at Waffle House. Well we get there and I take one wiff of that place and decide we have to get it to go... well I take her home and rush back home because I can feel the nausea getting worse and worse and all I wanted to do was get to my nausea medicine. Well I get into my apartment and sit on my bed and my hubby comes in and I warned him I was about to get sick and lo and behold BOOM that second I became a puke monster. I hadnt even gotten a chance to eat anything that morning yet so it was stomach bile and water... lovely huh? I really thought the morning sickness was over but its like since that morning I havent been able to stop throwing up. And when I am not throwing up ... its like a constant nausea in my tummy. I feel so guilty cause I am really starting to hate being pregnant. I love my Opie but man he is draining the life outta me.
I went to my doctors appointment monday and my doctor was very concerned cause I have lost 10 pounds and I was already underweight for my height before I lost any weight. I weigh 122 now and I am 5'10...and she said that she wants me to gain 35 pounds this pregnancy and I really dont know how that will happen. I have always had a hard time gaining weight. But, ya know what I woke up yesterday and I told myself I was going to gain weight not for me but for my Opie...If I am unhealthy that means he is too and I couldnt live with myself If something happened to him because of me. So I told myself no matter how many times I have to throw up I am gonna get weight on me. So I have been literally forcing food down my throat. I have also been drinking chocolate Ensures. They serve as a meal and get my belly full and they have SO many vitamins in them and my doc said since I am not able to get my prenatals down then that will help get the vitamins in my as well. I am happy to say that I have gottan food and 4 ensures down and kept them down. I am still not feeling 100% but I guess its a step up.. I gotta get me a scale so I can track my weight at home. My next appt. is December 29th and thats the BIG appt. where we find out what we are having for sure... even though I am so almost positive its a boy.
Also I am 15 weeks today and I took a belly pic for you guys... I am finally starting to show even though I am gaining no weight my uterus is growing rapidly and my baby is doing so good.

So there it is... my belly lol and my messy room with the babys crib.
Im gonna go watch some more Friends lol.
Brittany<3

Your Gonna Be...

6lbs and 9oz. lookin' up at me
Like I have all the answers
I hope I have the ones you need
I've never really done this, now I know what scared is

Sometimes I'll protect you from everything that's wrong
Other times I'll let you just find out on your own
But that's when you'll be growin',
And the whole time I'll be knowin

CHORUS:
You're gonna fly with every dream you chase
You're gonna cry, but know that that's okay
Sometimes life's not fair, but if you hang in there
You're gonna see that sometimes bad is good
We just have to believe things work out like they should
Life has no guarantees, but always loved by me
You're gonna be

I'm afraid you'll have to suffer through
some of my mistakes
Lord knows I'll be trying to give you what it takes
What it takes to know the difference
Between getting by and livin'

‘Cause anything worth doing is worth doing all the way
Just know you'll have to live with all
the choices that you make
So make sure you're always givin' way
more than you're takin'

REPEAT CHORUS

Someone's everything
You're gonna see
Just what you are to me

You're gonna fly with every dream you chase
We just have to believe things work out like they should
Life has no guarantees, but always loved by me
You're gonna be
Always loved by me

I sang this to my belly all night. I will post more later after my doctors appt.
Brittany

Dear my little Opie,

I am laying in bed watching Friends (I know you are probably gonna come out of my tummy singing the theme song I watch it so much) and you are doing backflips in my belly. I have felt you tossing and turning in there all day. I don't know how but you must have known mommy wasn't feeling good at all because everytime I sat here today thinking why did I ask for this you would kick or punch or move and make sure that I felt it. You were there all day as a constant reminder that this is so worth it. Everytime I feel you fluttering in there I think to myself how did I get so lucky? I havent done anything that great my whole life I actually went down some bad roads a few years ago where I know God was not proud of me. But, somehow someway he found it in his heart to forgive me. And he gave me you. I will live the rest of my life never knowing exactly the words to thank him but I hope he can understand. I love you so much already Opie. No matter what. I can't wait to meet you.
Love,
Mommy

A Change of Heart <3

I have been sitting here indulging in different sorts of foods all day and night and I have been doing some serious thinking and soul searching. I'm trying to picture my life without my husband. Trying to think of what things would be like if we were to split up and we weren't together anymore. And I can't... I really can't picture living without him. It's like since the moment he stepped into my life it has turned into everything that I have wanted it to be and more. I never thought that last year when I got my job at Wal-mart that I would meet the man who I would be with forever. But, even though I had a boyfriend at the time, the moment he walked into that office and smiled at me.... I was hooked.

I understand that pregnancy is difficult for him to feel because his body isn't going through the things that mine is and he can't feel the little one growing inside me like I can. I talked to him about everything that was bothering me lately and he explained how he feels to me. I understand and I can guarantee that once our little Opie (what we have decided to nickname our little bean until its arrived) is here that he will be excited.

I went in there just a second ago while he was asleep and pulled the covers up over him and kissed him on the cheek and I just couldn't help but stare at him for a second. This is the man that gave me EVERYTHING I have ever wanted. He gave me the wedding of my dreams and gave me a baby and best of all he makes it a point everyday to make me feel like I am the most loved human being on the planet. I swear I think as I write this I am falling ever more in love with him.

Im gonna go in there and kiss him again and head to bed myself. All while enjoying Friends and M&Ms some more... yea I am gonna get huge but oh well lol

Brittany<3

Marathon of Friends With M&M's

Yessss that's right. That is exactly what I am doing. This will be my 6th time going through my Friends dvds... I am only on season 2 disc 3 so got a little ways to go. But, it helps pass time and it makes me so happy I love this show so much.

Okay onto other things. I have been feeling a little better lately. Still queasy from time to time but I can't complain I would rather feel a bit icky than be puking my brains out :). So I broke down and bought the Intelligender stuff off the internet and it came in a few days ago and it came out definate BOY !! I have thought the entire time that my little baby bunny is a boy but I was wishfully thinking a girl. Problem is hubby and I cannot agree on boy names for NOTHING !! We had the girl name picked out all perfect and I thought I had the boy name picked and come to find out he didn't like my idea...He doesn't want me to name my child Daniel because his college roomates name was Daniel... I don't get it. I can understand if something wierd happened or he didn't like him but his whole reason was it was my roomates name. That doesn't bother me because I love the name so much and its meaning... God is my judge. How wonderful?

Ahhh I am gonna name him whatever I want, period so I guess my husband will have to just quit being an overgrown child about it... which he has been being lately ALOT !! Not just about the baby names but everything. I have really been questioning my marriage lately. I am trying really hard to write it off as the pregnancy hormones. But, he just isn't excited about the baby and is just really .... distant lately. Maybe he is just scared or something? I have been very stressed and upset about it so please ...prayers are needed cause I love my husband and I don't want to do this alone :(

I guess I will shut up now and go enjoy my M&M's and Friends Marathon. I really want a bean burrito with a side of nacho cheese to dip it in from taco bell with a triple layer nacho... Oh gosh now my belly is growling.
Bye bye

Brittany <3

So here it is...

Plenty of people have voiced their opinion on the new president. I will admit I voted for Mccain. Though I have more democratic beliefs. Somehow I found myself at a crossroads when they announced Obama had won. I knew at that point there was nothing I could do to change it... and I started looking on myspace and there were people making very hateful racial slurs about this man and it literally brought tears to my eyes. I think it terrible that people assume just because he is black that he is going to ruin America. That had absolutely nothing to do with why I voted for Mccain. I do not care if he is purple ya know ?! But, I also don't like the fact that people believe just because he is black that he is going to change America... I mean don't get me wrong he very well could for the better and I hope and pray he does. But, I read someones mood status on myspace and it made me laugh. Her exact words were "I am tired of people talking sh*t about Obama. We have a black president people. One word: CHANGE !!" That got the idiot award for the night for me. The color of his skin does not dictate whether he will change things or not. Its all in him not his skin color.

In conclusion, I congratulate Obama. And I am not going to bash him or put him down cause he very well could do GREAT things for our country. I am happy with the outcome even though it was not what I was hoping for... I have been listening and doing research of my own and I just cant say much negative things about either one of the candidates.

On another note. The past 2 days have been AWFUL ! Today hasnt been terrible but its just a blah day. But, yesterday and the day before I thought I was literally dying. I had a headache that would not go away. Only thing pregnant women can take is tylenol (not extra strength) but the non-extra strength tablets are quite large and not gel-caps and I cannot take non gel-cap pills since becoming pregnant. They gag me... but I tried it anyways and lo and behold I gagged the sucker right back up along with a few other things I won't go into details about lol. But, mom got me some childrens liquid tylenol last night and I took some of that and while it as very... whats the word... thick in its texture it didnt taste helf bad ...like cherries. And about 15 minutes later my headache that had been plaguing me was gone. Thank the Lord !!!!!

Hubby got home yesterday. He made things so much better he was running around doing things for me. He is so wonderful.

Im gonna go relax I suppose.
Till next time :)
Brittany

Bye bye morning sickness hello new symptoms !

It's not completely gone. But, I am feeling better. Between the hours of 3-6 I feel TERRIBLE then all the sudden its like someone hits the off button and boom I am ready to eat everything in the house. Lately, I have been wanting nothing but rotel cheese dip. Oh gosh it's so amazing. But as the sickness tapers off I am noticing new things happening. Headache for one are a bummer. I never really had headaches before. Maybe one or two in my entire life. They aren't terrible but no headache is really fun ya know !? I am so freaking thirsty !!!! And I have this horrible yucky taste in my mouth that won't go away ... ahh the beautiful things of pregnancy. But like I said in the last post... I know how worth it this will all be.

In addition to new pregnancy symptoms there has been a surge of lady bugs in my apartment. They are not in or around anyone elses apartment around us we checked. Its odd really because I have a tattoo of a lady bug and if the baby is a girl I have thought of doing the room in lady bugs... Maybe its a sign??

Other then that ... nothing new really. Voted earlier today. And my hubby comes home tomorrow !!!!!!!!

Brittany

Hello living person inside me.

Yea so its dawning on me for real now I will be a mother in ...6 months. It hadn't dawned on me before 2 night ago I had to go to the ER because I started bleeding. Well we had an ultrasound and when the ultrasound first started my baby was laying there. I saw no heartbeat and it wasn't moving. Needless to say I started panicking. Then...it happened. I think I coughed or sneezed maybe and it shook my belly a little and I saw those little arms and legs start hitting me. Tears flooded my eyes. Not only did it actually have arms and legs this time but it had a face and looked just like a baby. Not a little sea monkey like previous ultrasounds. My little acrobat was turning backflips and sucking its little thumb. And is also measuring about 12 days further than we thought. So new due date is May 7th !!!! I saw that heart just racing at 168 bpm and its little fingers and toes opening and closing. I was in love at that moment. Its like before that I didnt really feel like a mother I never felt that instant love that everyone had talked about and I swear at that moment I fell so in love with this little person growing inside me I moved the ultrasound tech to tears at almost 3 in the morning haha. She was so moved she let us just sit there and watch my baby for an hour !!! My mom of course was with me because Brandon is still out of town and she was in tears the entire time. I forgot at that moment about the sickness and ache and pains and tiredness and heartburn and all the icky things that are happening lately. All I could think about at that moment was about my little one. My little baby that I am growing. Its a strange feeling at first. Feeling like you are becoming a mother. Even writing this I am feeling the tears hitting my belly.

To my little one,
No matter how sick to my stomach I am. No matter how tired I am. No matter the terrible things that come along with pregnancy. I know now how worth it you really are. I love you. And I can only imagine how much love I'll have for you when you come out if I love you this much already. It overwhelms me all the time just to think that someone is going to call me mommy this time next year. You are worth every single time I throw up in this pregnancy and you know how much mommy hates throwing up. I swear I would throw up everyday till you were born if that meant I get you at the end of it all. Nothing else matters now. Just you and daddy and God. As long as I have you all...nothing can bring me down. Thank you for choosing me. I don't know what I did to deserve something so wonderful. You are and always will be my precious gift from God.
Love,
Mommy

My husband

*sighs* While my hubby is not in the army (thank God cause I don't believe I am strong enough to be an army wife) he is out of town alot this past year. Its not fun and it's not easy. Though it is only for 3 or 4 weeks at a time those 3 or 4 weeks kill me. I miss him more than words could ever explain. We have been married for almost 3 months now and I have seen him for maybe 2 weeks of that. It could be alot worse I know but gosh I am wanting his arms around me so bad lately.Being pregnant has taken its toll on my body and gosh I am anything but lacking in the hormones levels believe me. I feel like an abundance of emotion is just showering over me at all time. I watch Maury or Cheaters and it's all over with I am crying the rest of the day. I literally have to be careful what I watch cause I will turn into a snot machine if I am not careful. That was graphic sorry. I know nobody reads this but I just love writing my feelings down. Its really helps this pregnancy seem a little easier. Nothing is really making it easier. I won't get into that right now though cause I had an excellent day today barely and nausea and I was actually able to eat full meals!! Maybe....just maybe I am going over that morning sickness hill and I am finally topping it... and it can only get better from here. Lets pray thats where I am at. I think I will head to bed now I just needed to vent how much I miss Brandon. I hope he knows how much he means to me.
Brittany<3

The ugly side to pregnancy. 11 weeks 3 days.

Alright so everyone is always talking about how spectacular pregnancy is and how much they loved it and blah blah blah.
I have to say congratu-freaking-lations to those women who breeze through their pregnancy with no issues at all really and truly I envy you like nobody's business.
But really lets be honest here. In my opinion pregnancy BLOWS ! Maybe I am the only one who feels this way but gosh I cannot and will not ever understand why anyone would wanna do this more than once. I really don't know why you would wanna do it once but hey I am doing it so I promise anyone can. It wouldn't be so terrible if it weren't for this amazing joy called morning sickness. Whoever named it that is an idiot for one cause I would have named it "All day everyday can't get through a day without feeling like your gonna barf at every second of the day sickness". I think I said day to many times but oh well that sums it up for me.
Pregnancy is not beautiful. Its straight up ugly if you ask me lol. First you got morning sickness which I won't get into big time cause I didn't have a terrible go with it but it was pretty bad.
But, lets see theres the hot flashes,sore boobs, headaches,crying fits, anger fits, hemroids(which I have yet to experience thank you Lord ), getting fatter, back pain, leg pain, cant sleep, cant stop sleeping, always sleepy. Really the list could go on and on and on for me but I will be quiet because I am not rambling and I need something to write about next blog right?
I think I am going to go indulge in my last cheese stick from sonic and call it a night. Perhaps more tomorrow.