A letter to my 15 year old self...

This idea is not mine I stole it from my friend Courtney. I would put a link to her blog in here but I have no clue how to do it.

Dear self,
You will be 15 years old March 10th. I just want to let you know that this next year is the year that changes your life...not sure if it is for the better or not. Just know that over this next year you need to lean on your mom for support. Over the summer nothing will change. Come November thats when the bad stuff starts. November 14 you will meet him. Yes, he is gorgeous, he is a smooth talker and promised you so much. He means none of this. Of course you don't know this at the time. I know your friends are pressuring you to do it...but stand strong in your faith in God and know that that is not what God wants you to do. November 15th of course you don't listen to your inner self and you will go ahead and give this boy you have known all of 24 hours the one thing that belongs to Brandon(your now husband). Oh how much you will regret this on your wedding day years later. You will wish that you had listened to your mom and God and your heart because you will remember telling yourself you didnt want to do it. But, they just kept saying you had to. Your 15 go ahead and do it everyone else is. But everyone else is not. You will soon find that out. When he doesnt call or barely even talk to you next time he sees you don't be hurt, don't start dressing like a whore and acting like one to get him to look at you again. But, of course you will and over the next few months he will keep taking advantage of your stupidity. Of course its not all his fault. When that party comes around and your mom begs you to go...DON'T !! Please don't leave you mom on her knees crying on the front porch as you run off to get in the car with him. This night will only hurt you both. You will find out what happens this night I don't need to go into details because they are all to horrific to talk about. Just know that you will grow from this and the names that people call you after they see the video mean nothing and you are not any of those things. Please from now on know that you are a good human being...and you deserve nothing but the best. Though there will be a few other guys in between over the years just know that you have a WONDERFUL man waiting to meet you on March 31, 2007. You will be in love instantly and just go with it. Because On september 4th,2008 you will find out the best news of your life. You are expecting your first amazing little girl. Although getting to this point will not be easy...Your mom will get even more sick...its not going to be easy watching the chemo treatments every week taking a huge toll on her body and then the doctors telling you its not doing anything but please just stay strong not only for yourself but for your mother. She is the greatest and most wonderful person in the world and you will never ever have anyone like her again. Your father...he will rob a bank and be put in jail...but don't let it beat you down. It's not your fault. I know you will blame yourself but he had to hit rock bottom somehow and this time he did. Just keep your guard up because people promise things in jail that they don't keep when they are on the outside. He still isn't out so I don't know how this ends but I will let you know....

Brittany<3