Sometimes I Wonder...

How did I get so lucky? I sat here and have been thinking about my husband for the past few hours and I am realizing just how lucky I am. I am 19 years old. At this age girls are in and out of bad relationships and I see these loser guys that are my age that are looking for nothing more than a girl with no brain who will be easy and let them in their pants. I had the privilege to get a job at wal-mart and my first day I am sitting at the computer doing my training and I turn around and there he was...reaching his hand out to grab mine to shake it with that amazing smile on his face and he flashed those big brown eyes at me...Even though I had a boyfriend at the time I fell completely and totally in love with him at that moment. I knew nothing about this man and here I was catching myself thinking about him all the time. But, he was my manager and I had a boyfriend so we had 2 things working against us. I let a friendship build with him over the next few months then my boyfriend and I broke up and I was working back at the oil change center and he came in to get his oil changed one day and I snagged his phone number off the paper and texted him and lied asking who it was and my "friend" had given me this number and told me to text it. He was intrigued once he found out who it was that was texting him and we began having a little text flirting. But, that next week I found out the terrible news that he had a girlfriend. But, yet he still kept texting me telling me how he wished I was her and how he wanted to be with me...I was falling in love with him and I was scared that he was just leading me on and him being the nice guy that he was tried to stop texting me out of respect for his girlfriend although he was unhappy with her he didnt wanna hurt her feelings. A month later I text him randomly and find out they broke up and we instantly start talking about getting together alone. Now, up until this point I had texted him and seen and talked to him at work but never EVER hung out with him outside of work. December 5, 2007 I came to his apartment and we went to go get some Zaxbys and brought it back to his apartment( at this point he is still my manager so its against the rules for us to be doing any of this so we opted not to go out where people would catch us) We ate the zaxbys and watched Scarface and we held hands during the movie but I kept inching closer to him hoping that he would move in and he never did. I assumed he wasnt interested. Then the credits start rolling I lift up to relieve the tension in my back and then I rest back on the couch and he pulls my head towards him and gives me the most amazing 15 minute kiss I could have ever asked for. I simply told him " I have been waiting forever for that." He put in office space but we didnt watch it I was to busy with my lips on his...The rest is history...

I still cant believe it sometimes that he loves me. I would often question whether or not he really loved me but I catch him looking at me sometimes and I can just see it. Its in the way he looks at me, he touches me, he kisses me, the way he rubs my belly, in going to work everyday to support our new family...EVERYTHING he does is because he loves me. I have never known such a love. It overpowers me sometimes how I could love someone as much as I love him...but I do. I literally have loved him from the moment I laid eyes on him and it only grows stronger every single day.

If you made it this far good job lol Sorry i wrote a book but this is something for my child to look back on and I figured it would be nice for her to read how mommy and daddy met and how much they loved each other.

Everything is okay as far as the baby as well I'll write more in a few days !

Brittany<3